I’m gonna be away

Twelve more hours and I’ll be on my way to the airport!

I have nothing much to say actually. Just feel that I need to sort of put out an ‘Away’ notice here. I’m sure I’ll have lots to share in the hols, since Caryn & Beeguat & Doreen and everyone else are coming over… but line at home isn’t good. Can you believe that we’re still using dail-up… 1515… *eee-oooo-eeeee-ooo-ee-oo*… at a crawling speed… ==!!!

Done my packing. Just left the last few things to stuff into my luggage. ^^

Went to do some last minute shopping at the night market just now. And we ‘threw’ away the cat & kittens. Or more correctly, I was the one who forced the others. It’s not like I don’t like cats and stuff, but they are starting to poo in the drain outsider my room and the stench is… imaginable. And being kittens, they scratched at everything, and the newspapers would be torn into many pieces and strewn all over the place. And mama orange cat is going to give birth soon (for the 3rd time) and is constantly looking for ways to come into our house through my room window! Oftentimes we came back and found my mosquito net pulled off from the frame… What’s more annoying is their sneaking-into-the-house and constant meowing-for-food… If it goes like a day or two I don’t mind, but imagine everyday you have to chase them off and close the door even though it’s hot just so that the cats won’t come in.

Well, this is not the least bit interesting I know. But I just want to explain to that you out there who might be disappointed, frustrated or even angry that I insisted on sending them off. How I wish I could NOT do that. But sometimes when we couldn’t commit ourselves into taking care of pets, then we can’t keep them. To me, it is just selfish and isn’t fair to have the at-times fun with them and leave the all-the-time trouble to others.

Ya so there, my ‘defense’….

Alright, so I’ll see you guys again… if the connection at home is okay enough… Tomorrow morning have to wake up early… we’re going to church to join in the 24-hour prayer before heading to KL Central. What a blessed way to begin a trip. Hahaha… Till then, God bless everyone! :)

reviving dreams

Exam's over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! **With Robin Williams' 'Freedom' playing at the background**

As expected, I wasn't as thrilled as I should be. The climax was usually the countdown moments before the last paper.

Went straight to Cheras for cell group after exam. Our last meeting for the semester! The next time we come back we're going to have a new member joining us! Yay~~~!! d^^b

Tonight we shared mainly about our 40-day fasting and praying, what we have encountered so far and stuff like that. I wasn't planning to share about anything serious. I thought of my grandma who was hospitalised last week but was discharged few days back... and I thought, that was one good testimony to share. In the end I didnt know why but I talked about how I felt that God's glory had left me that sort of thing. Like God's calling was once upon me and then I didn't manage to get hold of that kyros moment and it just swept past me. Like how God's anointing had swept past Saul and went to David. Saul died a tragic death. And I shudder at the thought of ending up like him. All the effort previously gone just like that. Burnt to ashes.

When I first gave my life to Christ, I knew that I was going to be in this field, and I dreamt big dreams for God. Dreams so big that I don't dare to share with others because they sound ridiculous to my own ears. They were all by simple faith and a pure heart. Now, looking back, I suddenly feel that I am not at all equipped to do His work.

By His love He reminded me through my leader that I am to give thanks. That He hasn't forgotten me and obviously hasn't left me. That all these are convictions from the Holy Spirit who was reminding me of my big dreams. I guess I was the one taking a few steps back and then a few more steps back. He was there all the time. God's trying to save me here before my fire's snuffed out. He's saying that it's time to step out of my comfort zone.

And I want to praise Him for all that... how much He has encouraged me through my leader. It was like a deliverance that no one knows has taken place. Just what I needed to get rid of the vile lies of the devil!

Get behind me, Satan! My God is a warlord!

posting matters

Hi May!

I’m counting down to freedom! 16 more hours and I’ll be free from studying-for-exam for one whole semester! Yay!! ^^

Dealt with some posting procedures this week. It’s like so near yet so far! We have one more year to go. One more year to graduation; to parting; to going on our own separate ways. But to be asked to decide on where we want to go one year before all these just seemed a little too early!

Back to maktab in teachers’ attire. In fact, we went the day before and were halau-ed because we’re clad in jeans and t-shirts. Wasted half of our day going back and forth between Cheras & Pj. The effect of bureaucracy…. sigh!

I opted for Sarawak = uncertainties. The Kakak who managed all these sounded kinda surprised when she saw my form. Usually Sarawakians and non-Sarawakians will not choose that I guess. Why, Sarawak is so big, and there are so many rural primary schools without English teachers! All this while our lecturers scared us with ‘you’ll be posted to Sabah & Sarawak’… as if West Malaysia doesn’t have rural areas! I heard that a Hulu Selangor Tamil school just got its pipe water supply recently okay… after waiting for 50 years! Wow, that’s like not much difference from the ulu places in Sarawak & Sabah… Anyway, I think it’s not where I choose that’ll determine where I’d go. God is in reign anyhow. I believe it’ll be His best will for me wherever I get.

Borang ini dihantar ke Sekolah Rendah. Macam kesian je. Hahaha…

So these few days we’re just ransacking for certs & photocopying them and looking for passport pictures. I haven’t had enough… had to go to the studio and took new ones. I’m disclosing it here… so don’t laugh!!!

Schema… Nerd… Whatever you name it. XD

And it’s so expensive! RM20 for 8 pieces only. I think back in my hometown you can get 12 pieces for RM8!

Just realised how old my offer letter was. 2005’s like 5 years ago…! Seriously couldn’t remember how I felt when I first got it. Again the cliche, how time flies!

And I’m going to be a real teacher sort of thing next sem. How does it feel like to be in authority I wonder. To be in front of the class, talking instead of listening. Reprimanding instead of being reprimanded. Nodding your head instead of greeting & bowing.

God, please don’t give me a school with scary pupils, those who like to challenge teachers! I don’t have faith in my classroom management skills. Yet.

Now I regret opting for Subang Jaya schools. I heard that the pupils are too advanced. *faints*

Anyway… let me just put all that aside and concentrate on my freedom now. 15 and 1/2 more hours to go. I can’t wait to go home and tour with my friends! Am half a tour guide for the 1st time! ^^

See, I’ve even gotten new Hawaiian shorts for the trip!

My beloved Kuching, see you in 4 days! :D