Saturday, October 25, 2008

Inadequacy

Feeling inadequate.. Does that portray low self-esteem?

Accompanied my beau for lunch just now.. Dont know why suddenly the topic of me not being able to cycle was brought up.. he was kindly offering to teach me in November.. or dont know when.. and then we switched topic to swimming (coz we're sitting by the swimming pool).. and it's something which I'm hopeless in too... cant even float... Then came back from lunch.. huzmate was learning piano and guitar through YouTube and got it in a short period.. I was doing my assignment.. but once in a while the thought of not being able play any musical instrument well came distracting... and I suddenly felt that there're lots of things which I've missed last time.. maybe during childhood.. simple things that fill the typical childhood life...

Lack. That's how it feels like. I guess the only thing I'm good at is memorising. Hahhaa.. My study method also depends very much on that.. Memorising.. Habit formation? Behaviorism? Perhaps that's been the traditional approach in teaching and yea, I'm used to that.. So there's not much right-brain skills for me.. Pathetic..

Now I really come to realise that life is not solely about getting good academic performance... Coz when the stress is on studies, studies and studies.. you miss all the little interesting bits in life.. And in the end you'll feel inadequate like me...

Well, to think of the bright side of things.. perhaps it's this inadequacy that will lead me to wonder and marvel at the talents God bestow upon other people.. remain humble and always think of others as better than myself.. and help me to always be down-to-earth instead of high and mighty..

So despite my inadequacy o Lord, I want to praise You.. because it's in my inadequacy that Your abundance shows; and it's in my weaknesses that Your power is made perfect~

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

starting a new blog for the 3rd time!!

Argghh... finally.. wanted to post a video on Friendster blogs this afternoon.. then found out that I couldnt.. or is it just my stupidity... anyway.. a friend suggested Wordpress.. so went there and set up everything and found that they only allow certain file types.. so arrgghhh.... here I am!

Dont know how long this is gonna last.. but initially I thought I'll settle down in Friendster blogs.. ahaks.. anyway.. for my 1st post i'll just load the video which leads me here... ^^

video

ahahaha.. just felt how BIG the universe is and how small and unsignificant I am... reminds me of how BIG GOD is to be able to create something so so MASSIVE... and yet lotsa times our faith is so small that we think that God can do things to a certain extend only... well.. not gonna repeat wad I've written in Friendster.. but God, how grateful I am to YOU~!!

Inadequacy

Feeling inadequate.. Does that portray low self-esteem?

Accompanied my beau for lunch just now.. Dont know why suddenly the topic of me not being able to cycle was brought up.. he was kindly offering to teach me in November.. or dont know when.. and then we switched topic to swimming (coz we're sitting by the swimming pool).. and it's something which I'm hopeless in too... cant even float... Then came back from lunch.. huzmate was learning piano and guitar through YouTube and got it in a short period.. I was doing my assignment.. but once in a while the thought of not being able play any musical instrument well came distracting... and I suddenly felt that there're lots of things which I've missed last time.. maybe during childhood.. simple things that fill the typical childhood life...

Lack. That's how it feels like. I guess the only thing I'm good at is memorising. Hahhaa.. My study method also depends very much on that.. Memorising.. Habit formation? Behaviorism? Perhaps that's been the traditional approach in teaching and yea, I'm used to that.. So there's not much right-brain skills for me.. Pathetic..

Now I really come to realise that life is not solely about getting good academic performance... Coz when the stress is on studies, studies and studies.. you miss all the little interesting bits in life.. And in the end you'll feel inadequate like me...

Well, to think of the bright side of things.. perhaps it's this inadequacy that will lead me to wonder and marvel at the talents God bestow upon other people.. remain humble and always think of others as better than myself.. and help me to always be down-to-earth instead of high and mighty..

So despite my inadequacy o Lord, I want to praise You.. because it's in my inadequacy that Your abundance shows; and it's in my weaknesses that Your power is made perfect~

starting a new blog for the 3rd time!!

Argghh... finally.. wanted to post a video on Friendster blogs this afternoon.. then found out that I couldnt.. or is it just my stupidity... anyway.. a friend suggested Wordpress.. so went there and set up everything and found that they only allow certain file types.. so arrgghhh.... here I am!

Dont know how long this is gonna last.. but initially I thought I'll settle down in Friendster blogs.. ahaks.. anyway.. for my 1st post i'll just load the video which leads me here... ^^

video

ahahaha.. just felt how BIG the universe is and how small and unsignificant I am... reminds me of how BIG GOD is to be able to create something so so MASSIVE... and yet lotsa times our faith is so small that we think that God can do things to a certain extend only... well.. not gonna repeat wad I've written in Friendster.. but God, how grateful I am to YOU~!!